"This book is my secret journal, " Nouwen says. At first, he had no intention of sharing this personal diary of the dark and difficult months when he felt all meaning to his life was missing and all ahead seemed dark -- a bottomless abyss. In spite of his inner torment, Nouwen by personal discipline chose to record in sixty-three journal entries the descent into his heart.
He was persuaded by friends that sharing his painful soul-searching might help others who were struggling to embrace life with joy. Throughout his life Nouwen longed for deeper relationships with others and with God. "Do not hesitate to love and to love deeply, " he urges. Yes, your heart may be broken. But then you have the choice -- to become bitter or to stand in your pain and become fruitful with God as the spiritual guide of your life. The inner voice is a voice of Love.